The End

Things that have come to an end in my my life....

Many good books

Elementary, Middle, High school

Undergrad 

Masters Program

Giving Birth

Moving to a new town

Bedford

My gallbladder 

Dating

First year of teaching

Kristin

Exercise challenge 

3 Slice of Life Challenges....here's to next year 

There are lots of stories in this list. I need to remember to look back at this list next time I write. 

Fear

K is playing in the living room.

Q is outside with daddy. 

Daddy is cleaning the garage. 

I am enjoying the silence, cleaning veggies and fruits for the week.  

Q comes running in the house screaming, "Mommy, MOMMY, come NOW!"

I dropped the pineapple and knife and went running. Fear running through me. 

What happened?

Why is he yelling for me?

Who is hurt?

How much blood will there be?

Where is my phone to call 911?

I reach the garage with fruit all over my hands to find Q laughing.  "Mommy, daddy is hilarious!"

There's no blood, nobody is hurt, no need to run, no need to worry.  They are only playing. 

Daddy was riding the little power wheels. It was funny enough for Q to scream for me.  

Telling Q never to yell like that again, I went back to my work. 

Missing

A list of things I miss

1. Dad

2. Quiet

3. Good Music

4. Madonna 

5. Babies

6. Friday nights at Sonic

7. Movie Nights

8. Dates with my Husband

9. Sleeping in

10. Mama's Resturant

11. Crusin' with the Girls

12. Mancino's Sub

13. Magic Morning Smiley Cookies

14. Late Night Conversations with Roommates 

15. Random Roadtrips 

Dinner and a Good Book

Tonight, I ate my dinner in the truck along with a good book. The husband, boys and I decided to get our grocery shopping done tonight and have dinner in town. 

As we were leaving the house, the husband said he need to stop at the hardware store. I knew what this meant. I would enjoy some time to myself while daddy and the boys had their fun in the store. I grabbed my book with delight, knowing I may get some quiet to read. 

I was starving and wanted to eat right away. I was on my own, nobody else wanted to join me.  This was my chance.  I talked the husband into getting me take out Chinese before they were shopping.  

They left me in the car with my dinner and book. As I sat there eating, I wondered what people were thinking as I sat there with take out and a book in a parking lot. Oh well, I enjoyed myself!

Is it sad that this has become a common pass time for me? 

Kick, Punch, Bite, Hair Pull, and Laugh

Today was our annual Crisis Prevention training. 

Every year, our school's Crisis team gets retrained for using deescalation and proper holds. Since I am one of the special education teachers, I'm on the team, along with administration, other special education teachers, a kindergarten teacher, and most of the men in our building. There are always lots of kicking, punching, biting, hair pulling, and laughs.  

Today was no different than any other year.  We discuss problems we have had this year, practice the strategies, and laugh about kicking and biting our boss. Really, what other job is it okay to punch or pull your boss' hair?   

As always, I get paired with one of the guys who is significatly taller than me to practice. Thank goodness we change partners after awhile.  Then we have to yell, to use the element of surprise. For those of you who know me, you know I don't yell. I actually made it this year without our instructor making it his mission to make me yell. That was a relief! 

Just a few pictures of my colleagues having fun putting me in a restraint. 

I guess I deserved it.  I did punch her first. 

I tried to fight, but they were just too good. 

Still fighting them. 

Okay, I will be good!  

Getting Motivated......for What?

Have you ever had the feeling that you need to get involved?  Make a difference?  Help someone? Just be involved?

I have had this feeling for about a week now.  I am not sure where it came from, but I want to do something about it. It's  not like I sit back and let everyone else help.  I just feel like there is something more for me. 

I have started some research on a few ideas, but nothing feels right. Over the past few years, I have tried volunteering for different organizations. None of them have been a good fit. 

I don't know what this calling has been this last week, but I am determined to find the place I am suppose to be. 

Realization

Tonight was Q's music program. It is always exciting to go to our school music programs. We are lucky enough to have an amazing music teacher. 

Tonight as we were listening to the program, I realized my little man is seven, he is in first grade, he is growing up. At that moment, I looked over at my mom to see tears in her eyes as she mouthed he is growing up.  Yes he is!!!

I am not sure when this happened, but I am not ready for it. 

Yesterday, I was holding this sweet little man. 

And today this young man woke up nearly as tall as me. 

Just a few pictures from the music program. 

K was searching for Bubby. 

Look how adorable they are!!!!!